lost

this is the second time i blogg and i am still kinda lost. :(
but i would like to introduce myself.

hello, my name is gladys, and i am an undocumented student living in southern california since the year 2000. I am currently a high school senior and about to enter the real world. and the truth is , I.am.more.afraid.than.i.have.EVER.been.in.my.life. yesterday, the fact that i would have to face the cold world hit me. i know i will not be alone. i have close friends who understand me, and i have my family, and more importantly i know i have GOD by my side. But sometimes, you can not help but to feel alone. alone, invisible to the world before you. invisible to the mother you love. throughout elementary and middle school i was always depressed about my situation. in 2005 my father was deported and it broke my heart. i did not know if i would have to return to a coutry i did could no longer remember, or if i would stay here, living with my aunt and siblings while my parents we in mexico-thousands of miles away. fortunately, i have my parents by my side, but the fear of being separated from my loved one's still dictates my life.
now that i am in high school, ive learned to look at my situation in a different, more colorful way. ive learned to accept my world (and living situation) as it is, and have peacefully learned to reside in it. ofcourse my status in the United States does not make me jump up and down of happiness but my world is no longer pitch black.
through this great adventure i learned that everything has a reason, and that to find great joy, great sacrifices must be made. thats why i am in this coutry, thats why my family, and the people i have befriended and their families are in this country.
throughout my blogging experience i will publish small information about my life.
have a great day!



When we are dreaming alone it is only a dream. When we are dreaming with others, it is the beginning of reality.-Dom Helder Camara

We need hope.

I was looking for quotes about 15 minutes ago to help me keep moving without giving up. But sometimes, the feeling you get when you think of the future, of your friends and family, of your dreams and aspirations, and being illegal becomes overwhelming. you fall into deep depression when you think about the truth, and it breaks your heart to feel so powerless. I applaud the brave young men and women in this country who are also undocumented and have been able to move forward without letting anything stop you. YOU ARE MY HEROES. I am still very young. I am still 16 and knowing that you guys went through every feeling in me right now, and were not stopped by the barriers before you, inspires me to do something great with my life, but most of all, it inspires me to keep fighting against every obstacle against me. You who manage to keep a smile on your face give me hope. Thank you very much for taking a moment and talking to me. Thank you to those who encourage me to keep moving forward. I do not know where i would be if you would not be in my life. and thank you for caring about me, and making me a part of your life. This is for anyone, and everyone, who fights for hope, who fights for a better future, who fights to find their utopia, for everyone who fights for the DREAM act.